New trend at the Shah alam

Ran off the time before step into the komuter at kl central,
Time blashed,kick off jump to Rapid KL heading to friend place,
Suprisely, black car stopped at petrol station,a voice came out qing...'
I stood.
2pm after got up and went for kelantan dishes, Rm7.60 about same to Mcd happy meal price that i having last night.
World moves,people moving,
This is good chances?
A guys around eyes with black makeup dark circle.

Thats all belong to new trend.
Welcome again to Shah Alam.

Might the god blessings towards to your attitudes of your miracle(2005)

11 July 2005 early morning my car window got smacked,
All valuable stuffs stolen, My first time make a police report,
I hate this, and I asked the policemen ‘ do you get paid well in salary?’
because my belonging was total lost about rm2500,thats over than my salary, pretty sad. cry also no use.

Unconsciously, I found I wasn’t that mad, Might the god blessings towards to attitudes of that person miracle, Might the god forgives you because of your life measurement getting bound, And you should able to know I can’t live without music, learning materials and image attributes, but you do insist despoiled? This is an accursed ?

(sting white t-shirt.....)14 juLy 2005

It is not the keyboard started with the capital T...(2005)

Two months ago,an unknown aerobic mate,I glimpsed him among the crowd.I didnt concern that he is the one I have browse from the net...but after i realise , I did ,and accidently i pressed the keyboard of T and email it....


Many things I do not perceive directly,But I do able to estimate somethings…In addition, I do have my instinct of my eyesight.We are grown ups, where we won't even know how to act like mature,like a boy , Like a new born boy in the world...


It can be in this society, Whom can't face time by time in life growing or physically growing ?I didnt to be, i just want to be myself only.....

I back without any direction of my hometown that night...Just fell to reaching there , but i couldnt catch it....i didnt know what happening for the next.....Meaning of life as what you said counting day by day.... but you didnt mean that, the answers always keeping inside your heart and continuing in your mind.Why we say good bye so sombered , Are we really say good bye after shaking hands.Doesnt embrace for me to left behind, feeling should not say.Ought to be i rare hug by someone for time being....because i know and i knew that i would be back.


My friend say, why people have gave me a thesis, and i become theoretical at the end !i cant give any specific dimension of my answer to him,no doudt that i have to learm from...In another way , i might not let my voice to speak out loudly.Killing my time , its not what i want , just try to compose my notes.you did things that i might not understand sometimes,but i couldnt predict what you trying to do,just like when you logged the car door after our dinner....but .... i knew that feeling was there ... ....

2:10am 22 june 2005

Local Dish Mamak, Should try.

i like the fish...

Antinomy between take it or leave it…(2005)

Ruthless of me to said out,Why I did? Because I’m selfish,I did not want to continue involving of oppressiveness.Antinomy between take it or leave it………

But I wasn’t in good taste.It is not tradition Chinese ghost day 15/7/05But after 15 July 2005 “this” will be expiry.How spectacular also mean less.All the elements it might change,How essence materials also impulses into another forms,Flower wont drops, but deforming……….

Stay away mixed feelings and went for body balance,I was waked up by the serenity music.10mins lying at mat, curious what are the others fitness mates their minds.Do you think of me?We are person of Chinese ancestry,But we are born Malaysia-Chinese and proud of what we have,Don’t tell…. You are animated of pure-heartedness…You are avoids embellish…Because of these I fantasize what you have than others don’t.Could we just stay out of the city?

One of my net buddies, who also originated from Penang,Says: why intensive for observations?So am I?He added: live in wisdom and we are assessing from within yourself the formulae you are looking for you to live a better lives……Emmm…..I think everyone also knows what they wants…..But maybe I was born in fragile of clan, (not an impotent, please)Buddy, I think u had figure out that most of my words,Always occur between with the answers and without the answer or ending?

So am I? No! You don’t have necessary to ignore the question,I do believe the answer is always inside your heart.Because we are not lazy to think it…
So are you? So am I?

Just finished one can of 6.4% Thai made Blue Ice Beer,Nothing to do with alcohol, but is time to sleep,Don’t take sleeping pill, okay?I’ll still be with you.

25 june 2005 morning...

I cried without tears (2005)

Love is not everything,
But the love makes me existent,
We couldn’t predict what another party thought,
Human is real, precise….
Personal illusions may make u dream come true, also,
Fantasy that progressed from possibility to actuality,
However……….
However,
It might be brings the negative from your over imagination.
That’s pity.

In the indefinite circumstances,
You choose not to choose me.
Because of mine “embrace” word?
……………………………………
I cried without tears,
And you keep silence.
And we let it be?

9Jan 2005

Thanks A, R, D and OLE Cafe (2005)

10:00pm
What is the fact meaning of the life?
What we needs have to face in our life?
What is true or dare?
Who dare to take it or leave it without any behind?

10:30pm
The questions are just come out without stopping,
Why there is really no one could answer the question,
But answer it always keep it into the deeply heart?

11:00pm
The stage performance is over,
We all claps the hand, even we all don’t know what it is all about.
We left the things that we do not know, and we might not interested to know,
But we might miss some thing that’s what we want indeed.

11:30pm
Why my Cantonese still making sick for other people?
And suffer them/some for 8 years long?
Why doesn’t make sense to them?
Should I suppose to use my mother language “mandarin”?
This is silence performance or another small group favorite?

12:00am
I shouldn’t puff the cigarette, and so am I?
I wasn’t know cause of smoke it may spoil the friendships
So I blame the cigarette…
And I keep smoking for continuous as my punishment…

12:30am
The Malaysia government have been carried a good role
And promotes the anti smoking campaign,
But the result still showing the same increasing for our youth
Yet, they had failed for the quit smoking campaign as well.
Does the love would make the impact?
Have we realized that our parents or our love one loves us?
Or we do not know how to love ourselves?

Sigh…I just wish I could be able to find my loves…
Circulative world …


Thanks A,R,D and Ole Cafe….

June@2005